I often find myself day dreaming. I am guilty, I am a dreamer but I like to think of myself as a doer as well. But there are some dreams that I have that do not require aggressive action such as… Writing a letter at Juliet’s wall, tossing a coin in the Trevi, to ride a shiny new bicycle through Copenhagen or Rome, and a hot air balloon ride over France! I often dream of what can be and the impossible! The impossible is my favorite! Seeing an entire village in the Congo rejoicing for their greatest needs have been met without explanation other than Someone greater than themselves. A boat ride that carries enough medical supplies to save all the children in a turkish orphanage or rescuing all the women and children in cages deep in the heart of Istanbul that have been trafficked. I love rescue missions of any form! There are people in every population waiting for a hero, a Savior, to be rescued! I want to be there, I want to reach out and grab a hand in the darkness that had but only one strand of hope they were clinging to and just in time that Hope came through.
It all starts from a feeling, a hope of adventure, then returns to a quiet thought and word within me. Often the word grows louder and louder and becomes a battle cry often times depending on the dream! No matter the dream it always seems to create fuel. I am a person that needs a place to expend that fuel.
Silence becomes like a giant question mark in my mind! Whats next, whats new, and where will my little feet take me next? I find myself caught in my purpose and my face set like a flint and I am thankful for determination but often desire support and encouragement.
When I really need inspiration, lifted up, encouraged, empowered, or a release of emotion I take to the studio or a space just big enough to dance in and let it all out!
My secrets I desire to share with someone, a person. There is One that knows all about me and all I am made of but I hope soon to share things with the love of my life.
Im taking my time to enjoy the adventures brought my way, walking a line holding my big red umbrella high to keep my balance knowing I will be just fine He has my back and things stay snappy and joyful as I go not to say there is no pain, and that big red umbrella doesn’t help shield me from the rain that comes. But i keep my heart guarded safely wrapped in cellophane kept dry from the rain that would beat against and try as it might to drowned me out. I am not so easily washed away.
Everyday is a new day, sometimes it is filled with sunshine and fun flying big blue kits and running along the beach and then sometimes it is filled with shadows that are cast around me but I see through them, sparks that fly in efforts to set me back and keep me form moving forward. I will have a happy end.
I am a doer in the sense that I take an aggressive stance toward the issues I find an injustice against my beliefs and right to human life and living to the greatest potential an individual is capable of living. Human trafficking. Victims of violence, poverty, and hate. Complacency. People the world has written off, given up on, turned their backs on, I desire to change the world! I believe I can, I believe when I am gone something will be different here on Earth. I want to feed the hungry, hold up the weak, and find the lost. I know this sounds familiar right? Everyone tends to speak highly of their desires and altruistic motives but those who know me know this is my heart and the deep desires I have to accomplish in my vapor of a life. This si my happiness, this is my hope and love. To be used by the great Hope, the great Lover.
So please remember, so many are in need, suffer in silence, and sometimes simply fade away, be kind this world is a small place. Share love, be the change, we all have desires of being loved, so give what you desire to receive. This sounds elementary yet the majority of people are failing that test. We have all been given a measure of faith, plenty of hope and love to go around, be the change, be the giver, be the hope for the hopeless, be LOVE! Just be more.
I am just crazy enough to believe this place we reside in could be filled with joy, hope, and lots and lots of love. I am a dreamer but I am a doer as well. What are you? Whether you understand me, like what I stand for or disagree with my whole existence, don’t take it upon yourself to crush my dreams, hopes, and love. I should hope you could find it within yourself to have enough respect for humanity to allow me to seek and fulfill the life that has been purposed for me and I will without a doubt do the same for you! Pain overflows most often and people do not even realize they are creating destruction with parameters often bleeding into others personal lives. Be aware of your ripple affect, what are you giving? How much are you taking? What are you leaving behind as your legacy and in the lives of others. You cannot help but leave fingerprints everywhere you go. Please be aware.