Life has been called a game. There are many analogies we can relate to considering life. Such as the training wheels individuals have on life for awhile and then at some point to avoid growth stunting, those trainers must go.

We as individuals possessing free will have opportunities constantly knocking. We can choose culture and education from the vastly creative world we spin in or we can sit back in our easy chair and grip the remote to view the world through a small box.

What you want to avoid in this life, the only life we have, is the possession of the rules and available resources but the lack of understanding fo the strategic and tactical advances needed to move forward effectively.

Sometimes “things” get to serious and you are unable to even catch your breath and other times “things” are so arbitrarily nonsensical all you can do is scratch your head.

ImageThe heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps Proverbs 16:9

Life can be a long tumultuous journey for some, never finding a break it seems but it could be perception in many ways.

We learn what life is in many way an from many sources often neglecting the source that created life. When all along we should seek the Creator of life concern His creation and what the standard by which we are to live love and focus our purpose and priorities.
Often what is looked to for a standard is society, media, celebrities, and the fads of the American culture.

John 1:4 says in HIM is life and the life was the light of man

Luke 12:23 for life is more than food, and the body more than clothing.

It’s more than the American dream. There is a bigger picture that each life is a small puzzle piece of the whole.



Who is the Gatekeeper, Keeper at the Gate…???

How often do we convince ourselves there is someone or something guarding the passage to which we need to pass? Whether that is on a journey or time in prayer… ImageLet me tell you I have found, for the most part, we are our own Gatekeepers, keeping ourselves from passing through the way we know we must go. For whatever reason, the majority of the time we are the impasse. We use various forms of “keeps” to guard the gate such as anger, unforgiveness, fear, bitterness, self-loathing, lack of self-worth, disappointment, mistrust, and even unbelief. Does this sound familiar to anyone besides me? I know in my life I often talk myself out of glorious adventures because I tell myself, I cannot, or don’t you remember who you are and where you have come from, you’re not good enough! Now the last one is a BIG one. A familiar phrase that has rang throughout my life, you’re not good enough! I was a fighter growing up never letting anyone tell me I could not do something UNTIL I began to tell myself the very words I fought against. I suppose I heard them enough I began to question the validity of the phrase. Anyone else relate? 

I am my own worst enemy and must I consider my options. I have two choices in life for changing the world. I can choose to leave the world in a better state or in a worse state. I am only one person and I am very flawed and have made more mistakes than I am capable of counting and I have hurt many people but do those moments in time define an entire life? Consider it… I know those around me and those I have hurt will not forget things I have done that caused pain or destruction but at this point when I take my next step will it be to hurt more people or to do my best to bring joy, and love into the lives I cross…

What will I do now? What will I do next? I have no idea what tomorrow holds but I do know how I will respond to whatever life brings me. I WILL be a positive influence in every way I am capable of being. I will make the right and good decisions that are laid at my feet. Not these choices do not erase my past but the ONE it matters to no longer remembers who i was and only who I am now. 

Who am I? To the world I am just a girl, and I do not have much to offer by myself. With the Kingdom of Heaven behind me I am a force to be reckoned with! A world changer, one who is not content to just sit and watch the parade of life and what it has for my entertainment til I pass away form this world into the next. No… not sufficient. 

I will consciously choose to remove myself form the situation and move forward following my focus and purpose in life, with my face like a flint on the goal, on the Kingdom, on my True and First Love and be about HIS business. I will choose to always reach for the latch on the gate and step through confidently not within myself but within Him. I do not want to be found sitting in a corner afraid and defeated. I will chase those dreams I dream and be a maker of music! I will not stop until I am empty, until I am used up. What does it take, resolve. Be determined, be fierce and refuse to give in because your not enough. Image

You don’t have to be capable or able within yourself, if that was the caseHe would not ask anything of any of us because we are all fragile finite beings incapable of even standing in His presence. He is what is needed. Jesus 

Stand up, do it, be courageous, do it afraid. 
I cannot change my past and the things I have done and the enemy likes to remind me of those things anytime I make head way but I put him down, I refuse to hear him. I also watch my own words and what I say to myself about myself. Do not defeat yourself before you even get started. No I cannot physically fly but I dream about soaring, I have never felt the feeling of climbing a physical mountain but I dream of standing on the very tip top fists punching into the clouds in victory. Keep moving, don’t get complacent, don’t defeat yourself, make your enemies job harder and refuse to believe his lies. See yourself as beautiful and worth the day you have been given to make a difference! 

My Coffee Gets Cold…

ImageI often find myself day dreaming. I am guilty, I am a dreamer but I like to think of myself as a doer as well. But there are some dreams that I have that do not require aggressive action such as… Writing a letter at Juliet’s wall, tossing a coin in the Trevi, to ride a shiny new bicycle through Copenhagen or Rome, and a hot air balloon ride over France! I often dream of what can be and the impossible! The impossible is my favorite! Seeing an entire village in the Congo rejoicing for their greatest needs have been met without explanation other than Someone greater than themselves. A boat ride that carries enough medical supplies to save all the children in a turkish orphanage or rescuing all the women and children in cages deep in the heart of Istanbul that have been trafficked. I love rescue missions of any form! There are people in every population waiting for a hero, a Savior, to be rescued! I want to be there, I want to reach out and grab a hand in the darkness that had but only one strand of hope they were clinging to and just in time that Hope came through. 

It all starts from a feeling, a hope of adventure, then returns to a quiet thought and word within me. Often the word grows louder and louder and becomes a battle cry often times depending on the dream! No matter the dream it always seems to create fuel. I am a person that needs a place to expend that fuel. 

Silence becomes like a giant question mark in my mind! Whats next, whats new, and where will my little feet take me next? I find myself caught in my purpose and my face set like a flint and I am thankful for determination but often desire support and encouragement. 

When I really need inspiration, lifted up, encouraged, empowered, or a release of emotion I take to the studio or a space just big enough to dance in and let it all out! 

My secrets I desire to share with someone, a person. There is One that knows all about me and all I am made of but I hope soon to share things with the love of my life. 

Im taking my time to enjoy the adventures brought my way, walking a line holding my big red umbrella high to keep my balance knowing ImageI will be just fine He has my back and things stay snappy and joyful as I go not to say there is no pain, and that big red umbrella doesn’t help shield me from the rain that comes. But i keep my heart guarded safely wrapped in cellophane kept dry from the rain that would beat against and try as it might to drowned me out. I am not so easily washed away. 

Everyday is a new day, sometimes it is filled with sunshine and fun flying big blue kits and running along the beach and then sometimes it is filled with shadows that are cast around me but I see through them, sparks that fly in efforts to set me back and keep me form moving forward. I will have a happy end. 

I am a doer in the sense that I take an aggressive stance toward the issues I find an injustice against my beliefs and right to human life and living to the greatest potential an individual is capable of living.  Human trafficking. Victims of violence, poverty, and hate. Complacency. People the world has written off, given up on, turned their backs on, I desire to change the world! I believe I can, I believe when I am gone something will be different here on Earth. I want to feed the hungry, hold up the weak, and find the lost. I know this sounds familiar right? Everyone tends to speak highly of their desires and altruistic motives but those who know me know this is my heart and the deep desires I have to accomplish in my vapor of a life. This si my happiness, this is my hope and love. To be used by the great Hope, the great Lover.

So please remember, so many are in need, suffer in silence, and sometimes simply fade away, be kind this world is a small place. Share love, be the change, we all have desires of being loved, so give what you desire to receive. This sounds elementary yet the majority of people are failing that test. We have all been given a measure of faith, plenty of hope and love to go around, be the change, be the giver, be the hope for the hopeless, be LOVE! Just be more. 

I am just crazy enough to believe this place we reside in could be filled with joy, hope, and lots and lots of love. I am a dreamer but I am a doer as well. What are you? Whether you understand me, like what I stand for or disagree with my whole existence, don’t take it upon yourself to crush my dreams, hopes, and love. I should hope you could find it within yourself to have enough respect for humanity to allow me to seek and fulfill the life that has been purposed for me and I will without a doubt do the same for you! Pain overflows most often and people do not even realize they are creating destruction with parameters often bleeding into others personal lives. Be aware of your ripple affect, what are you giving? How much are you taking? What are you leaving behind as your legacy and in the lives of others. You cannot help but leave fingerprints everywhere you go. Please be aware. 


When you begin to say YES it changes everything.

I have set the Lord always before me: because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. Psalm 16:8

What makes you valuable is not what you do or how much you know or who you know, but who you are. Do you know who GOD says you are?
Most of life is spent in the place in between, not there anymore & not there yet. What we do, think & say there determines if we stay there!Image
If we are not aware of what GOD says about us, who we are in Him then how will we say the things about us that will get us where we need to be instead of stuck in the muck we are in?!
If you don’t know what God has called you, you will always be defined by what others label you!   I’m called a daughter of the king. I responded to call & didn’t react to the label. Who are you, or who do you say you are, believe you are?

Perhaps the hardest work we will ever do is to labour diligently to enter into that place of rest. – Hebrews 4:11

How will we ever do this if we are not standing in confidence. We find our confidence in HIM.   The only difference between being INsecure & secure is who you are IN. If you are IN Christ therein lies your security. 

The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. -Psalm 37:23 NLT  

Don’t try to get some thing from people they are incapable of giving you. Only God can be God. So don’t put your hope and faith in a mere man. Trust God, trust His word. He is faithful and His word is truth! Find what He has purposed for you, not the purpose man has for you, and say YES. ImageYou don’t know what is behind that YES and you do not know what is lost in your NO. God doesn’t require you to be the best or even capable all HE is asking for is a simple YES. He can change the world through you with a single YES. He is issuing your call, my call and needs an answer not excuse. If you say no many will be lost, how many is what you will never know. God is listening…

Because He bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath! -Psalm 116:2 NLT

We must have confidence in HIM, and who we are in Him. Proclaim the promises of the Lord for you. But that is not enough you and I must also a immovable trust in HIM that makes those promises. 

Hebrews 11: “Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen”

Here are a few scripture references to remind us of who HE is!

  • 1 Chronicles 16:34

  • Psalm 23, 25, 27, 30, 31, 32, 34, 91 (and that’s just to name a few in the Psalms)

  • Isaiah 40, 41, 42, 43, 44, 53, 54, 55, 61

  • John 14, 15, 16, 17

  • Hebrews 10, 12

Comfort Corrections

Something about our human nature really likes to be comfortable. Everyone has their wants and that is what they want! The majority of our lives revolve around our comfort such as advancement in our personal technology, schedules, and activities. This comfort seeking is from our worldly perception. The culture of the Kingdom is the exact opposite. God is not concerned with our comfort when it impedes the advancement of His Word, plan, and promises to His people. I am not saying He does not care at all about our comfort but it is not in the forefront.
God is not going to change His will or bend it to comfort us, those who desire to work for the Kingdom but want to do it within their personal box, a feel good version of the gospel. He is not going to shape His schedule around OUR schedule!

Here is a glimpse at the comfort of the Apostles…

1. Matthew
Suffered martyrdom in Ethiopia , Killed by a sword wound.

2 . Mark
Died in Alexandria , Egypt , after being dragged by Horses through the streets until he was dead.

3. Luke was hanged in Greece as a result of his tremendous Preaching to the lost.

4. John
Faced martyrdom whenhe was boiled in huge basin of boiling oil during a wave of persecution In Rome . However, he was miraculously delivered From death.John was then sentenced to the mines on the prison Island of Patmos ..He wrote his prophetic Book of Revelation on Patmos . The apostle John was later freed and returned to serve As Bishop of Edessa in modern Turkey . He died as an old man, the only apostle to die peacefully.
5. Peter
He was crucified upside down on an x-shaped cross.According to church tradition it was because
he told his tormentors that he felt unworthy to die In the same way that Jesus Christ had died.

6. James
The leader of the church in Jerusalem , was thrown over a hundred feet down from the southeast pinnacle of the Temple when he refused to deny his faith in Christ.When they discovered that he survived the fall, his enemies beat James to death with a fuller’s club.
* This was the same pinnacle where Satan had taken Jesus during the Temptation.

7. James the Great
Son of Zebedee, was a fisherman by trade when Jesus Called him to a lifetime of ministry. As a strong leader of the church, James was ultimately beheaded at Jerusalem .The Roman officer who guarded James watched amazed as James defended his faith at his trial. Later, the officer Walked beside James to the place of execution. Overcome by conviction, he declared his new faith to the judge and Knelt beside James to accept beheading as a Christian.

8. Bartholomew
Also known as Nathaniel Was a missionary to Asia . He witnessed for our Lord in present day Turkey . Bartholomew was martyred for his preaching in Armenia where he was flayed to death by a whip.

9. Andrew
Was crucified on an x-shaped cross in Patras , Greece . After being whipped severely by seven soldiers they tied his body to the cross with cords to prolong his agony. His followers reported that, when he was led toward the cross, Andrew saluted it in these words: ‘I have long desired and expected this happy hour.The cross has been consecrated by the body of Christ hanging on it.’ He continued to preach to his tormentors For two days until he expired.

10. Thomas
Was stabbed with a spear in India during one of his missionary trips to establish the church in the Sub-continent.

11. Jude
Was killed with arrows when he refused to deny his faith in Christ.

12. Matthias
The apostle chosen to replace the traitor Judas Iscariot, was stoned and then beheaded.

Was tortured and then beheaded by the evil Emperor Nero at Rome inA.D. 67. Paul endured a lengthy imprisonment, which allowed him to write his many epistles to the churches he had formed throughout the Roman Empire . These letters, which taught many of the foundational Doctrines of Christianity, form a large portion of the New Testament.

Perhaps this is a reminder to us that our sufferings here are indeed minor compared to the intense persecution and cold cruelty faced by the apostles and disciples during their times for the sake of the Faith.

And ye shall be hated Of all men for my name’s sake: But he that endureth to the end shall be saved. -Matthew